let’s be honest…

you don’t know who you are because you’ve never felt safe to fully express yourself. for years, you trusted the framework of a damaged and disconnected society. you followed trends, whispered gossip, lived in toxic environments, and were manipulated by mind-numbing media, all while living a life that slowly felt less and less like yours. somewhere along the way you forgot the beauty of life and lost the ability to feel deeply. or worse, you felt deeply and didn’t have the words to explain it.

Safety is not the absence of threat, it’s the presence of connection.

what do i do?

the music i play reconnects you to yourself. by singing the words and phrases you’ve been waiting to hear your whole life you begin to remember who you are beneath the stories and projections you thought were true.

together, weaving music and honest conversation, we bring awareness to your unconscious damaging patterns, interrupt those patterns, move through the resistance that arises, and repattern your subconscious with affirmations of self-trust.

during this process i give you permission and a safe space to release the feelings you haven’t felt.

you reconnect to yourself by reconnecting to nature. you stop taking life so seriously. you embrace authenticity and accountability. you befriend your shadows and witness them without running.

we integrate your psychedelic or spiritual experiences so you know you’re not going through psychosis. we shed light on the things you’ve felt inside yourself but have been unable to explain with words. we stop giving a fuck what the rest of the world thinks. we embrace your inner child and full spectrum wild crazy primal self. we rebuild the gut biome with whole nourishing foods. we inspire you to create art — possibly after years of stagnation. we show you how to rest and do nothing.

perhaps most importantly, we regulate your emotions and body and give you the tools to return to that regulated state at any time.

and lastly, we find clarity about what you want from this life.

how do i do what i do?

in my 1:1 work, i play a live serenade of songs that sound like they were written specifically for you. the words help you feel less alone by demonstrating that there’s someone else going through the same thing as you are. the sessions are listened to for 21 days. with each listen, the lessons become more integrated. the medicine isn’t only in the first session but in the repetition, which engrains the new patterns into your neural pathways, much like hypnotherapy.

in my group and private nature immersions, i show you how to embody the masculine and feminine qualities equally.

on the feminine side, i show you how to walk slowly and connect with your feelings through lyricism and emotive language.

on the masculine side, i show you how to carry yourself with clear boundaries, steady integrity, and embodied integrated presence.

during the days we move slow, cook primal meals, play in the river, and explore waterfalls. we go deep into the wilderness so you can experience stillness and silence and merge with the natural world. we end each evening under the stars around a campfire. no distractions. songs that break you open. community that can hold you gently.

no phone. no shoes. no itinerary. a full detox from reality.

when you leave the frequency of society, things come up that may have been buried for a long time.

we sit with them.

we talk about them.

we move through them.

and then you feel lighter, clearer, and ready for what’s next.

why do i do this?

i do this work because i wish i had someone helping me 14 years ago so i could have avoided all the times i nearly took my own life from feeling lost, confused, and lonely in this world.

these songs are an intimate exchange with earth and spirit. over many years and miles, i’ve become a professional listener and witness of the world around me and i want you to know that you have similar abilities inside you waiting to be cultivated.

you deserve to live a life of purpose in loving service without burning out, without feeling alone, and always knowing you’re enough.

we all have a unique gift no one else has. that is our medicine to share. i strive to awaken that inside you.

what’s my story?

i didn’t think i’d make it past 25. i was alcoholic and depressed for over a decade. the only thing that kept me alive were my songs. not sex. not psychedelics. not religion. SONGS. they became my teachers and my best friends.

these songs aren’t just for me. they’re for the world.

somewhere along the way, i started sharing them and speaking up. i’d play around campfires and people would listen for hours.

they told me i helped them stay grounded, move through breakups and relationship issues, and process their experiences on this earth. some said i healed their chronic pain. others said i inspired them to start playing music again.

so i started sharing every chance i got. a guy at an open mic in thailand told me i was “a walking campfire.”

i started writing songs because i wanted people to see more clearly what we were doing to the earth. now, i write them because i want people to see what they’re doing to themselves.

i write all the time. songs. poems. reflections. books. over 600 songs later, the meanings never lose their potency. the right song always appears when it’s needed.

my songbook is my medicine cabinet.

whatever you’re struggling with, there’s a song holding the cure. just like the ayahuasceros sing the icaros, the songs of the plants, i sing the songs of your soul.

i’ve been skeptical about this process, too. and despite my skepticism, the songs still bring me home to myself every time. whenever i lose my way, the songs illuminate the path and walk beside me.

each time i share a song people release something they didn’t even know they were carrying. many are brought to tears. people stop me and smile into my eyes and say thank you. all across the world, time and time again.

so i keep singing.

why can’t you do this work yourself?

you can’t do this work yourself because you don’t know where to start. you don’t have the tools to explain the things in your life that have kept you stagnant. since birth, you’ve seen the world through limited perceptory gates that’ve become narrower and narrower as you walk through life. outside of what you’ve been told is reality, another realm exists. that’s where these songs take you. further into yourself than you’ve ever been. putting words to what you’ve tried to explain for years.

it’s alienating when you get it and your friends don’t. when you break away from the pack to wander on your own. we can’t see our own blind spots. we can’t see what we don’t know exists. we cannot change a problem with the same level of thinking that created it. we all have teachers and mentors in our lives. i’m not saying i have the answers to everything. but i might have the next step toward finding yours.

there will always be unanswered questions, but as long as we know how to regulate, breathe, and be present we will be able to thrive anywhere in the world in any situation or circumstance.

by slowing down, we catch more. by observing, we remember ourselves. we honor our ancestors. we walk in a good way.

what if you’re skeptical?

after all the things you’ve tried…you haven’t been able to fix this, right?

because it’s not meant to be fixed.

it’s meant to be sat with.

witnessed. seen. integrated.

trust that we found each other for a reason.

start with one session. listen for 21 days. tell me what you notice. answer the journal prompts. sit with the silence. see what shifts.

or

come to the jungle. the mountains. the forest. join me for a week-long immersion. let’s explore the depths of what you’ve never been able to tell anybody else. let’s peel away the layers to find the root cause of your dis-ease, chronic pain, writer’s block, depression. let’s listen together.

i can say with confidence that when this process is completed it brings peace, tranquility, and clarity about what’s next. when left incomplete, it may not.

it’s up to you how well it works. how present can you be with the music? how introspective can you be with the songs? how open and honest and raw can you be with yourself? how fully can you express your wishes?

more than trusting me, do you trust yourself?

to be clear:

i do not force, life coach, or practice therapy.
i do not heal you. i am not a healer. i am a witness and conduit.

this is The Sacred Conversation.
if you’re meant to step into this space, you already know.

with respect,
Penn

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